madly in love with Iraq

17.5.07

Whistle blowing

Just you wait Sirs and Madams, residents of H……Lodge!
I was boiling with anger reading a forwarded e-mail from P my only ally in the block of flats where I live.

How dare they meet and agree on a new management of lease-holders behind my back?
Haven’t I been living in here for the last 10 years? Don’t I pay my mortgage, my council tax and my service charge as all of them do? What right they posses that I don’t? Or is it the foreigner dilemma again?

Upset was not the right word to describe my state; cheated? Looked down at?
Fooled after all these year? I guess I felt much worse…

Self-pity controlled me for two days; I started picking on people and wondered about the real meaning behind their said words, and whatever had hurt me for the last ten years came to life again, sizzling and ready to explode.

I even lost it in the gym which is supposedly the only relaxing place in this city, when a woman asked where I learned to hula hoop, and I said “back home at my school in Baghdad”, she nodded alright; but I did not like the expression on her face, I thought it was of disbelief and mockery, and I had to straighten matters up and lectured her on Iraq before and after.

The worse feeling I usually endure when I’m down like this, is guilt.
How can I allow myself to complain and feel bad when my people are living in Stone Age conditions? Expecting death at any minute, and have nothing to look forward to? Shouldn’t I be thankful to be here instead of moaning?

To hell I said to myself, let them manage as they like and leave me engulfed in my own worries and sorrows. What is it for me anyway? It is all about the wheelie bins, recycling crates and saving the environment.
The hypocrites, what about the pollution they are causing in my country? One bomb is enough to ruin all the plans to save the world from global warming.

What do I need from all this waffle? Those people are creating myths out of war on terror on one hand and saving the globe on the other and who knows what is next?

I told these neighbours of mine long time ago that I come from a country that has a neighbour ethic. It is a disgrace to hurt abuse or spy on the person who lives in your area. I said it confidently then, but can I do that now?

I used to brag about how warm, sincere and genuine Iraqis are, when compared to this regimental society where everything has to be written and documented even with the closest people…neighbours.

Then I remembered the whistle blowing…

The following day I wrote a short letter to the management describing my concern about the behaviour of some residents who insist on excluding me from their meetings without any apparent reason and with my letter I enclosed a copy of “Diversity and equal opportunity policy” which dominates most businesses in this country.

I felt it was a silly act, or at least it was not a me act; but this is how it works and I have a right which has to be activated and made use of.

A week later I received a letter calling for a new meeting of residents to choose a new management!

On the day, I went into the place confidently although inside I felt a bit shaky, I looked in their faces which revealed nothing as usual, and was greeted with the normal chats.

The discussions went on and on and we finally agreed on what was agreed upon few weeks back when my esteemed self wasn’t present! and we finished with all smiles and best wishes.

As I walked home I thought of how much there is yet to learn from those people.
Inside of them there is a lot going on, but so little is said.

I am still trying what else can I do? At least I blew the whistle…

6 Comments:

  • You did right.

    But I don't understand why they would exclude you in the first place. Are they scared of you?

    By Anonymous Don Cox, at 3:25 pm  

  • Good for you Hala! I know exactly what you are talking about! I used to be excluded from a lot of things in the workplace, "What would that 'primitive' Iraqi know anyway?' Sadly, because of all the wars that the West has imposed on us, I know MUCH more than they do... But you're absolutely right! What's civil about dropping bombs on innocent civilians to grab the energy resource under their feet and thus create more bombs to stash money? What's civil about totally ignoring the use of Depleted Uranium while millions suffer because it's a cheaper source of weaponry and they can get away with it? I guess that is their interpretation of civility. If they can get away with murder, than they are the 'Western' civilized society that looks out for the welfare of 'humankind'!

    By Blogger ZZ, at 8:20 pm  

  • I have no idea what you are talking about, Hala, as I am not British and not particularly fond of the British. Have you considered moving to another country? One that didn't participate in war in Iraq? I'm not trying to be a smartass... it just sounds as if your feelings about the British are going to be a problem for you that doesn't go away soon :(

    zz,

    I know exactly what you are talking about! I used to be excluded from a lot of things in the workplace

    I still get excluded from a lot of things in the workplace, and my family has lived in this country for centuries. I guess they don't have as high opinion of me as I do :O

    Bastards.

    sadly, because of all the wars that the West has imposed on us, I know MUCH more than they do...

    ehhhh.... what industry do you work in!?

    By Blogger programmer craig, at 4:09 am  

  • Hala

    Maybe what I'm going to say sounds a bit fishy or bad but that how I see things at the moment.

    You got your right back as you claimed it, isn't it good? Can our families back home get their rights by asking for them? I know the situation there is different as it's a war and even people here might behave worse in wars, yet, can't we learn to behave in a civilized way.
    You've mentioned the neighbouhood rights, it's really that we used to have them but do we have them anymore?
    People are being forced to leaved their houses for silly sectarian reasons, we're loosing everything in a rapid deterioration.
    I agree that it's hypocracy more than democracy, yet, isn't it better than dictatorship? isn't it better than forcing people to do what someone idiots thiks it's right?

    I agree that they don't care about ou country and not just the pollution they caused but the large no. of malignant diseases, but they care about their country and their life , why don't our people think or behave like that like that? Wouldn't it be much better now if we just bothered oureslves thinking about each other instead of being selfish following a sectarian mentality?

    There are many leaders in Iraq who lived a long time in the western world, yet, could they learn to be civilized?
    Unfortunately, we can get some mocked justice here by asking for it or at least we can be clmed down by some words while there we might be killed if we disagree.
    The gap is so big and I don't see anyone is working to fill it.

    By Blogger A&Eiraqi, at 2:56 pm  

  • It is not true that we don't care about your country. I feel deep sorrow each time I hear the atrocious news from Iraq.

    By Anonymous Eva, Canada, at 2:38 am  

  • By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:34 am  

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